The moon blind-sided the sky again
As we grabbed loose ends of the tide and then
The slippery slide
You know I can’t say when
I ever took a ride that could slap me this silly
With roiling joy
Lazy as sin
Lyin’ up in heaven with my special friend
And the space he’s in
It can make a girl grin
In the beginning of a lifelong fling

I wrote down a dream
Folded the note
Slipped it in the pocket of my tattered coat

I wrote down a dream
In invisible ink
It never was mine I’m beginning to think

I wrote down a dream
What more could I do
I drew myself a picture and the picture was you

I wrote myself a riddle
I said, What I wouldn’t do
To give something good
To a love like you

I wrote down a dream
Folded the note
Passed it to you we stepped in our boat

Sailed ’round the world
We were hoping to find
More than the sum of all we left behind

I wrote down a dream
But what was it now
And why does it feel so distant somehow

Did I take too long
Did I get it wrong
You’re still the missing line in my favorite song

What a beautiful piece of heartache this has all turned out to be.
Lord knows we’ve learned the hard way all about healthy apathy.
And I use these words pretty loosely.
There’s so much more to life than words.

There is a me you would not recognize, dear. Call it the shadow of myself.
And if the music starts before I get there dance without me. You dance so gracefully.
I really think I’ll be o.k. They’ve taken their toll these latter days.

Nothin’ like sleepin’ on a bed of nails. Nothin’ much here but our broken dreams.
Ah, but baby if all else fails, nothin’ is ever quite what it seems.
And I’m dyin’ inside to leave you with more than just cliches.

There is a me you would not recognize, dear. Call it the shadow of myself.
And if the music starts before I get there dance without me. You dance so gracefully.
I really think I’ll be o.k. They’ve taken their toll these latter days.

But tell them it’s real. Tell them it’s really real.
I just don’t have much left to say.
They’ve taken their toll these latter days.
They’ve taken their toll these latter days.

I will remember
every dream about you
I will remember
I could not doubt you
All my first impressions
of my new possession
I will remember
I will remember

Every shadow
every shiver
every breath of borrowed air
somehow
I feel now
Every whisper
taken prisoner
every brush of cloud
and furrowed brow
I feel
This last day darling
Here with me (darling)
All the rest is history

I will remember
every sliver of you
I will remember
every door we slip through
every curving hour
every dying ember
I will remember
there is no other

Every color of our sorrow
every fallen angel’s graceful bow
I feel now
Every broken word unspoken
Every crooked line of this sad town
I feel
This last day darling
Here with me (darling)
All the rest is history

Every kiss and curse
every burning thirst
every fix and flush of fire
I feel right now
Every sound we make
is a new prayer prayed
disappearing disappearing
I hold on now
Every shade of white
in the thieving night
that we steal to grow inspired
I know right now
This last day darling
Here with me (darling)
All the rest is history

But I will remember
every dream about you
I will remember
I could not doubt you
I will remember
No other lover
there is no other

I want you to be my love
I want you to be my love
‘Neath the moon and the stars above
I want you to be my love

I want you to know me now
I want you to know me now
Break a promise make a vow
I know you want me now

Like I want you

I want you to be my love
I want you to be my love
‘Neath the moon and the stars above
I want you to be my love

‘Cause I want you
I know all you–
All you’ve been through

Hej, Hej, Hej, Hej, Hej…
Hej, you wanna sit right here?
Here beside me?
Do you like that? I do.
Hej, you wanna say my name?
Say it slowly.
Do you like that? I do.

Hej, Hej, Hej, you wanna hold my hand today?
Hej, Hej, Hej, you wanna dance here in the sand?
Hej, Hej, Hej, you wanna hold my hand today?
Hej, Hej, Hej, you know it won’t be your last chance.

Hej, you wanna smile at me?
I’ll adore you.
Do you like that? I do.
Hej, you wanna read my poetry by the sea boy?
Do you BABY? I do. I do.

Hej, Hej, Hej, you wanna hold my hand today?
Hej, Hej, Hej, you wanna dance here in the sand?
Hej, Hej, Hej, you wanna hold my hand today?
Hej, Hej, Hej, you know it won’t be your last chance.

Hej, you wanna hear a secret?
C’mere I’ll whisper.
Do you like that? I do.
Hej, you wanna hear it again?
Maybe one day we’ll be sayin’ I DO.

Hej, Hej, Hej, you wanna hold my hand today?
Hej, Hej, Hej, you wanna dance here in the sand?
Hej, Hej, Hej, you wanna hold my hand today?
Hej, Hej, Hej, you know it won’t be your last dance.

sitting in the rain alone
looking at a place that’s gone
boarded up my memories
but something’s drawn me here again and i
i cannot leave the past alone
hoped that i would never find
all the shit i left behind
now i find the child in me is going to remind me that i
i can’t forget my past for long

so take a look outside yourself
and tell me what you see
i can’t believe
that you won’t see the change in me

give me strength to find the road that’s lost in me
give me time to heal and build myself a dream
give me eyes to see the world surrounding me
give me strength to be only me

i don’t want to hear the things
you say you know all you’ve redeemed
’cause i can’t change what’s come before
build myself some better dreams
and cast off the fear that holds me here

so take a look outside yourself
and tell me what you see
i can’t believe
that you won’t see the change in me

give me strength to find the road that’s lost in me
give me time to heal and build myself a dream
give me eyes to see the world surrounding me
give me strength to be only me

entertaining visions of a
lucid nature
emotional precision
it’s our best behavior
rattling the streetcars on
forgotten streets
making a connection with
the bittersweet

crawling into your mind
for some radiant reunion
tapping out the messages
that signify your
folded wings
the ground around receding
feel love’s stinging sword
cut deep and catch
the joy that’s bleeding out of
gentle wounds

feel the pang of hunger
feel the new life awaken
restoring everything
that once was taken…

symbolizing agony that
made the women weep
feel love’s stinging sword
slice deep and catch
the joy that’s bleeding out of
gentle wounds

bruised and beaten torn apart
the price that’s paid for love divine
can’t spare your life don’t spare
your heart
just feel the joy…

Fool
Fool me
I’m just a sentimental fool
It happened again
When
I remembered you
And all that we’ve been through
Love
Truly
I know this world it can be so cruel
I won’t let you go

Fool
Use me
This is the part that I can’t refuse
Just do what you do
My heart’s becoming true
It aches to make room for you
Fool pursue me
To heaven above or to hell below
Just don’t let go

Fool me
I’m just a sentimental fool
I can’t let you go

eyes wide open
to the great train robbery of my soul
impending blindness
of the kind that’s beyond my control

eyes wide open
to the secret forest beyond those tear-filled trees
heart-rending blindness
won’t testify that i’m on my knees

maybe i’m a little young to care
maybe i’m a little old to cry
i don’t know
maybe i’m a little weak to dance
maybe i’m a little strong to die
i don’t know

concentrating
love and i’m hating myself again
impersonating
the smallest shadow of my original self again

does anybody really want to grasp
my hand and lift me to my feet? does
anybody really want to be the breeze
that frightens off this heat?

Changes come
Turn my world around

I have my father’s hand
I have my mother’s tongue
I look for redemption in everyone

I wanna wear your ring
I have a song to sing
It ain’t over babe
In fact it’s just begun

Changes come
Turn my world around
Changes come
Bring the whole thing down

I wanna have our baby
Somedays I think that maybe
This ol’ world’s too fucked up
For any firstborn son

There is all this untouched beauty
The light the dark both running through me
Is there still redemption for anyone

Jesus come
Turn the world around
Lay my burden down
Turn this world around
Bring the whole thing down
Bring it down

fall on me
fall on me

birds of a feather and a featherless cap
poor lovers breed songs in a two-room flat
moist hands fold to pray for a painless truth
we dance on the tracks of a train called youth

truth’s on the table like a toxic spill
and we wrestle in the sheets with our own freewill
if we never shake hands with a phantom called fame
I’ll still have your picture in a picture frame

if you should fall
fall on me

forty-acre farm we can call our own
with a chocolate lab and no telephone
the full moon’s leering in a lover’s swoon
and the apple tree’s swaying to a windy tune

(save me I’m falling for you)

but we won’t get to heaven if we just sit still
if we don’t cry murder maybe no one will
we’re riding tandem down Sycamore hill
if we hit the brakes we’re gonna take a big spill

if you should fall
fall on me

and if my hand were taken hold of
I’d slip away with you love
slip away with you love

I follow you from town to town
I need it
I’m better off when you’re around
I mean it

Sooner or later
Things will all come around again
Sooner or later
I won’t need anything
Anything at all

I walk these streets alone at night
When it hurts me
A perfect life’s an oversight
You curse me

Should’ve known better
Than this esoteric love
Down to the letter
It don’t mean anything
Anything at all

You and I

I wrestle with these guilty thoughts
And I’m losing
You’re all I am I’m what you’re not
Confusing

Sooner or later
Things will all come around for good
Sooner or later
I won’t need anything
Anything at all

Anyway
words and music: Bergquist
recording: Amateur Shortwave Radio

it’s enough for now
besides I feel so awkward
anyway
and there is no doubt
I could sleep for hours
anyway
(i’ll never leave you now)

any recourse now
well it’s much too late
anyway
and our hate
like toys
should be put away
anyway
(i’ll never leave you now)

no wonder this confusion
you’ve suffered all my delusions

we can right the end
we can close this chapter
anyway
we can start again
no matter what comes after
anyway
(i’ll never leave you now)

this night is so big
this night has stars falling into my hands
and if i listen real close
i can hear some distant train crossing
(it makes me wonder)

cast your shadow
cast your shadow across my heart
investigate me
i hope i’ve been yours right from the start
(it makes me wonder)

and can it ever be
i would know
experience
the casualty of your love
all i can ever see
is the need
climb out of here
find the way to some quiet place
where you are

this night is so dark
this night has silence and very little fear
tell me this welcome peace
isn’t dancing with the ghost of future tears
(it makes me wonder)

see how the road melts
hear how the flowers fall
feel how the smoke rolls
in front of my eyes

see how the trees bend
hear how the heavens hush
feel how the earth fades
in front of my eyes

and can it ever be?

no
please no

Slow down. Hold still.
It’s not as if it’s a matter of will.
Someone’s circling. Someone’s moving
a little lower than the angels.
And it’s got nothing to do with me.
The wind blows through the trees,
but if I look for it, it won’t come.
I tense up. My mind goes numb.
There’s nothing harder than learning how to receive.

Calm down. Be still.
We’ve got plenty of time to kill.
No hand writing on the wall:
just the voice that’s in us all.
And you’re whispering to me,
time to get up off my hands and knees,
’cause if I beg for it, it won’t come.
I find nothing but table crumbs.
My hands are empty. God I’ve been naive.

All I need is everything.
Inside, outside, feel new skin.
All I need is everything.
Feel the slip and the grip of grace again.

Slow down. Hold still.
It’s not as if it’s a matter of will.
Someone’s circling. Someone’s moving
a little lower than the angels.
This voice calling me to you:
it’s just barely coming through.
Still, I clearly hear my name.
I’ve been fingering the flame
like tomorrow’s martyr.
It gets harder to believe.

All I need is everything.
Inside, outside, feel new skin.
All I need is everything.
Feel the slip and the grip of grace again.

So from now till kingdom come,
taste the words on the tip of my tongue.
‘Cause we can’t run truth out of town,
only force it underground.
The roots grow deeper
in ways we can’t conceive.

All I need is everything.
Inside, outside feel new skin.
All I need is everything.
Feel the slip and the grip of grace again.

All I need is all I need.

I think that possibly
Maybe I’m falling for you
Yes
There’s a chance that I’ve fallen quite hard over you

I’ve seen the paths that your eyes wander down
I want to come too

I think that possibly
Maybe I’m falling for you

No one understands me quite like you do
Through all of the shadowy corners of me

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

I think that possibly
Maybe I’m falling for you
Yes
There’s a chance that I’ve fallen quite hard over you

I’ve seen the waters that make your eyes shine
Now I’m shining too

Because
Oh
Because I’ve fallen quite hard over you

If I didn’t know you I’d rather not know
If I couldn’t have you I’d rather be alone

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

All of the while
All of the while it was you
You
You
You

Adia I do believe I failed you
Adia I know I’vd let you down
don’t you know I tried so hard
to love you in my way
it’s easy let it go…

Adia I’m empty since you left me
trying to find a way to carry on
I search myself and everyone
to see where we went wrong

there’s no one left to finger
there’s no one here to blame
there’s no one left to talk to, honey
and there ain’t no one to buy our innocence
’cause we are born innocent
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
it’s easy, we all FALTER
but does it matter?

Adia I thought that we could make it
I know I can’t change the way you feel
I leave you with your misery
a friend who won’t betray
pull you from your tower
take away your pain
show you all the beauty you possess
if you’d only let yourself believe that
we are born innocent
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
it’s easy, we all FALTER,
but does it matter?

(depending on version)

Ba ba ba ba bada ba da ba da ba…

’cause we are born innocent
believe me Adia
we are still innocent
it’s easy, we all FALTER,
but does it matter?

believe me Adia
we are still innocent
’cause we are born innocent
oh Adia
we are still
it’s easy, we all FALTER,
but does it matter?

It doesn’t mean much
it doesn’t mean anything at all
the life I’ve left behind me
is a cold room
I’ve crossed the last line
from where I can’t return
where every step I took in faith
betrayed me
and led me from my home

And sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

You take me in
no questions asked
you strip away the ugliness
that surrounds me
(who are you?)
are you an angel?
am I already that gone?
I only hope
that I won’t disappoint you
when I’m down here
on my knees
(who are you?)
And sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

(who are you?)
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

And I don’t understand
by the touch of your hand
I would be the one to fall

I miss the little things
I miss everything *about you*

It doesn’t mean much
it doesn’t mean anything at all
the life I left behind me
is a cold room

(who are you?)
And sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

(who are you?)
And sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember all the good times that we had
We let them slip away from us when things got bad
Clearly I first saw you, smiling in the sun
I want to feel your warmth upon me, I want to be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so tired,I can’t sleep
Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, we can’t be heard

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so afraid to love you, but more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
Gave me everything you had, oh you gave me life

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories

I have a smile
stretched from ear to ear
to see you walking down the road

We meet at the lights
I stare for a while
the world around us disappears

it`s Just you and me
on my island of hope
a breath between us could be miles
Let me surround you
my sea to your shore
let me be the calm you seek

Oh but every time I’m close to you
there’s too much I can’t say
and you just walk away

And I forgot
to tell you
I love you
and the night’s
too long
and cold here
without you
I grieve in my condition
for I cannot find the words to say I need you so

Oh but every time I’m close to you
there’s too much I can’t say
and you just walk away

And I forgot
to tell you
I love you
and the night’s
too long
and cold here
without you
I grieve in my condition
for i cannot find the words to say i need you so

What ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage,
created you a monster,
broken by the rule of love?
And fate has led you through it.
You do what you have to do.
And fate has led you through it.
You do what you have to do.

And I have the sense to recognize
that I don’t know how to let you go.

Every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul.
I’m ever swiftly moving,
trying to escape this desire,
the yearning to be near you.
I do what I have to do.
The yearning to be near you.
I do what I have to do.

AND I have the sense to recognize
that I don’t know how to let you go.
I don’t know how to let you go.

A glowing ember, burning hot,
AND burning slow.
Deep within, I’m shaken by the violence
of existing for only you.

I know I can’t be with you.
I do what I have to do.
I know I can’t be with you.
I do what I have to do.

And I have THE sense to recognize
But I don’t know how to let you go.
I don’t know how to let you go.

You come out at night
that’s when the energy comes
and the dark side’s light
and the vampires roam
you strut your rasta wear
and your suicide poem
and a cross from a faith
that died before Jesus came
you’re building a mystery

You live in a church
where you sleep with voodoo dolls
and you won’t give up the search
for the ghosts in the halls
you wear sandals in the snow
and a smile that won’t wash away
can you look out the window
without your shadow getting in the way
you’re so beautiful
with an edge and a charm
but so careful
when I’m in your arms

CHORUS
‘Cause you’re working
building a mystery
holding on and holding it in
yeah you’re working
building a mystery
and choosing so carefully

You woke up screaming aloud
a prayer from your secret god
you feed off our fears
and hold back your tears oh

Give us a tantrum
and a know it all grin
just when we need one
when the evening’s thin

Oh you’re a beautiful
a beautiful fucked up man
you’re setting up your
razor wire shrine

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there’s always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh a beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there’s vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
it don’t make no difference
escaping one last time
it’s easier to believe
in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

I was a quick wet boy
Diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes
Wide on my plastic toys
Then when the cops closed the fair
I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map
And called for you everywhere

Have I found you?
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big pill looming

Now I’m a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats
Curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold and clean
Blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you?
Flightless bird, grounded bleeding
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big pill, stuck going down

All these people they won’t leave me alone
And we need a little time to ourselves
And half the reasons why I’m sketchin’ all the time
The result of this life in hell
But oh well, I think its time

My faith is falling like the leave from atree
The pockets both take it away
The sun warms by body as I’m sitting on a swing
Watching columbus clouds bring in the rain
Oh well I think its time to go

My mind is playing tricks on me all the time
To let you know that I am real
And all the worries you build up inside your soul
The ones that make your world stand still
….Mean you can feel
when its time to go

Are you fed up, are you fed up with me?
Do you think that you could do better?

–not on original version–
Do I think that I know better?
Do they think that they know better?
–not on original version–

Five fed up faces with the itch to kill a king
Blood red sunrise, and a breat to air that’s clean
I drink from the faucet, from the porch I take a pee
I look at you through the bushes
Where you can’t see me

I laugh and slip into another state of mind
To let you know that I am real
And all the worries you build up inside your soul
The ones that make your world stand still, mean you can feel
when its time to go

I’ve got to buy some shoes
these ones are getting loose
my feet are sinking in the sun, and it ain’t fun
But it looks like rain up ahead in forty miles.
A big rainbow took the blue sky……
I’m gonna tell my momma, I love her so
and thank you for giving me these bones o’ gold

Jump in the river and let the
water soak the sin in my soul.
Fine time we all crossed lines
make the music that makes us feel fine
Rednecks on sun decks hearing a hillside Romeo say
“Boys this is the good shit, so come on y’all and eat a little bit.”
And if I ever go back home, I’m gonna say
Tell my momma, I love her so
and thank you for giving me these bones o’ gold

Jump in the river and let the
water soak the sin in my soul.
Don’t even say a word, it confuses me.
I do what he says to do, is that we don’t have to know.
We don’t have to know.